Late night post: Shower thoughts
As I was showering just now, I couldn't help myself from thinking about something real saddening. It's about how people stereotype/judge others.
It started with me coming back from my grandma's house. As I was holding a huge bag of rice and desperately trying to flag down a taxi, I noticed two men walking together towards me and my family(my bro and mum)'s direction. My mum didn't notice anything because of she doesn't have a habit of looking around like I do so it was ok. But as I noticed the two men were actually holding hands(or rather being rather shy, they were holding back), I can't help but to distract my less accepting younger brother so that he wouldn't judge them. As they walked pass me, I'm glad that my bro didn't see what they did as I know he is still young and may be too quite to judge. When they walked further and further away, I can't help but feel that there is still hope in fact, having seen three gay couples in real life before. The first was a cute couple that I coincidentally saw twice while in an unfamiliar area. The second was a lesbian couple who kissed at the bus stop(They were cute!) And thirdly, the one that I just saw an hour ago. It gave me hope that one day, any type of couples can walk the streets without feeling awkward about themselves. They can hold each other's hand lovingly and enjoy their time with each other. I do want to be able to do that, to hold the hands of the one I love, to walk along the streets with him proudly, to savor every second with him and give no shit to the judging eyes. Love shouldn't be judged.
Sub story~
Pardon me, I also find the story of the goose(was it? Or was it a duck or smth?) that fell in love with a man, cute and adorable. I mean, love is love. I don't mean that all type of love are acceptable but sometimes people need to open their minds wider. Animals are still creatures with emotions, well at least the bird has emotions~ I DO NOT support animal sex on the other hand. Love is still ok, just don't over extend it I guess... Fk me... =.= If it didn't make sense on the animal love part, just ignore it...
Back to shower thoughts~
Alright, so as I was saying, I came to realize a saddening truth, that most people, including myself, have to go through/experience/come close to a problem/issue/person just to be able to not judge them. I know what I am saying may sound a bit confusing, I'm rather blur right now(Supposed to be sleeping already but decided to do a last minute blog!)
In order to make myself sound clearer, lets use an example.
In my case, I have to admit that if I was straight, I would find myself not in favor of the LGBT community. I'm really embarrassed to say that but its the truth. It's because that I am gay, I am exposed to this wonderful community that I would never have been a part of if I was straight. For that, I am really glad that I am born this way. I can clearly say that many of my friends, you know who u are~ also have changed their perspective of gays after knowing that I am one. It only when something strikes close to you, and that something is a thing that you cherish or hold dear, would you be willing to open your eyes and become at peace with it.
Another example was the fact that I've tried researching on anorexia for one of my projects before. As I have not experienced it before first hand, I ain't able to clearly understand the reason for them doing this. Only when a few weeks ago, while I was depressed over my weight and the fact that my diet is imbalanced, that I nearly became an anorexic. Trust me, I felt EXTREMELY HORRIBLE! I couldn't put a piece of dognut, a rather healthy piece of dognut too, near my mouth. Every single time I put it near my mouth, I would feel EXTREME guilt and feel horrible. I couldn't do it. A single piece of dognut. And to top it off, I hadn't had a single thing for like the past three to five hours... My brother chided me for being childish but I realized, it's really simple to command, to judge and to think you know it all. I felt worst after he scolded me too. It almost worsen the situation. I had to force myself to put that piece of dognut into my mouth and while I chewed on it, I wanted to vomit. I forced it down, made myself remember that I need to eat dinner, to psycho myself back to normal. In the end, I realized, it is really a horrible mental issue. It's not about "JUST EAT IT" but rather a really real threat that can cause big problems.
After this experience, I came to realize too, we are always too quick to judge, we are all too accept the usual stereotype, that just because he is homeless, dirty and ruggard looking doesn't mean he is all bad and tough. He may be the gentlest man you have met, he may have a greater heart than most of the people you know.
When people around us start to expose us to issues that we have already subconsciously stereotyped and judged then maybe we may finally open our eyes to explore the world behind the veil that we have installed in front of the beauty that lies in front of us.
Just a start, maybe the next time you see a gay couple holding hands and kissing, instead of thinking, eeww gross, maybe try thinking that that's love. And be happy for them, that they found love, despite all the challenges the society imposed on them.
Next time when you meet a person who is depressed, don't just scold them for being stubborn and not looking at the bright side. Who wouldn't want to be happy if they can? They have problems, especially within themselves. They are waging an internal war and we shouldn't be pressuring them, we should be supportive.
All in all, when people around us expose us to different issues, our horizons would open up much wider, our world would become much more meaningful and we will also become much more wiser!
Open yourself up people!
Let's create a better world together!!!!!
PS: One day, I'll walk around my neighborhood with my boyfriend, hand in hand and not be afraid of those stubborn eyes! I'm gonna make myself worthy for him and for myself.
PS:If I made a mistake in the above post, please feel free to comment! Try to be constructive instead of destructive too! And lastly, I don't intend to insult anyone or anything!
